Breast Cancer · Cancer · Depression · Family · Grief · Life

The middle of the war 

When you’re first diagnosed with breast cancer and you share the news with your family and friends, people tell you some pretty specific things. They tell you that you’ll beat this thing. You are a warrior. You’re strong. You’ve got this. Then, when there aren’t any more cancer cells in your body, they congratulate you… Continue reading The middle of the war 

Breast Cancer · Cancer · Life · Uncategorized

To be flat or not to be flat

    Yesterday I had a really bad day.  I went to get a temporary prosthesis to wear in two specific instances before my second mastectomy surgery: if I want to wear one of my two favorite dresses and job interviews. I planned to get one, for now, to “balance myself” and then get a matching,… Continue reading To be flat or not to be flat

Breast Cancer · Cancer · Family · Life · Motherhood

My heart

    As has been happening with a relatively alarming frequency lately, things with Daughter are quite a challenge. She is going through quite a lot, I know, and it is expected that she would have some adverse reactions. Being nine when your mom goes through breast cancer has to be hard, and her frustration is… Continue reading My heart

Cancer · Depression · Grief · Life

My princess moments

Husband and I decided to make me get out of the house and took Daughter to see the new Beauty and the Beast movie. I say that we took her to see it because I do not want to admit that I was sort of desperate to see the movie myself. It did not go… Continue reading My princess moments

Family · Happiness · Life · Uncategorized

Best ever

Husband, Daughter, and I went out for a nice dinner last night. It was a way to celebrate spring break and probably our last opportunity to go out as a family for quite a while. The food was wonderful and the conversation was easily some of the best we’ve ever had as a family.  On… Continue reading Best ever

Cancer · Family · Life

Non-traditional tradition

When I was that age when everything is annoying, I remember my poor mom had to take me on a short road trip twice a year. It wasn’t fun for either of us and, although I don’t remember it specifically happening, I was probably a complete jerk about it. You know, because kids are the… Continue reading Non-traditional tradition

Anxiety · Life

Give me the beat boys

I like The Simpsons a whole lot, the old ones anyway. There was a lot of truth to be seen in it and a lot of laughing. Plus, it’s one of those shows that you can endlessly quote which is something that Husband and I appreciate in a ridiculous way. One of my favorite Homer… Continue reading Give me the beat boys

Anxiety · Cancer · Friendship · Life

Appropriately whelmed 

It seems like all I’ve been doing these last few months is waiting. I waited for results, waited for various doctors, waited for insurance companies and even more doctors, the waiting never ends. Tomorrow I will finally know when at least some of the waiting will end. I don’t have too much to say about… Continue reading Appropriately whelmed 

Anxiety · Cancer · Depression · Life · Marriage

We always do 

Around eight years ago now, my family went through a really hard time. Husband was sick- very sick- and there were two times we almost lost him. Daughter was so very small, and every single thing about it was hard. The worst part was Husband and the way he was behaving. He was so different… Continue reading We always do 

Books · Cancer · Friendship · Life

Don’t think about zebras

I’m so tired of thinking about breast cancer, mastectomies, and reconstruction surgery. I’m tired of trying to get my energy and fitness up to speed up recovery and watching what I eat so I can lose weight. I’m tired of obsessing about my underarms. I decided not to think about those things for a little… Continue reading Don’t think about zebras