Anxiety · Life

Give me the beat boys

I like The Simpsons a whole lot, the old ones anyway. There was a lot of truth to be seen in it and a lot of laughing. Plus, it’s one of those shows that you can endlessly quote which is something that Husband and I appreciate in a ridiculous way. One of my favorite Homer quotes has been swimming around for me lately, and it’s suddenly a lot less funny now that it feels real for me. 

I can’t even remember the exact context, but Homer, in an extremely disappointed voice, says, “Aw. Every time I learn something new it pushes some old stuff out of my brain.” I used to joke by saying this one a lot whenever I was tired while studying or having trouble with a particular concept. It was a joke, though. Just a little levity to help my mood in the moment. Today, I felt it for real. 

I was driving home from the vet and a saw I didn’t know came on the radio. My brain almost literally hurt from the new information. I had to change the station. When I got home and sat down to watch something, what did I choose? Reruns. Even better, a show I practically knew the words to. 

My brain is so full right now. All I think about is surgery to the point that I cannot focus on anything else, even cleaning. So no new information is allowed in the region of me for a while. I’m going to have to figure out a way to get past this. Until then, I’ll just listen to Dobie Gray song Drift Away and try not to be overwhelmed. 

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