I’m pretty sure that at some point on the blog I wrote about how Daughter was seen by outsiders as a delightful and easy child because of, in large part, the decisions we made to help her along. There were countless little things hat we did to make her seem like a trouble-free child, like… Continue reading Success for me, too
Not going to lie: I’ve been pretty rough around the edges lately. Medically and emotionally frustrated and overwhelmed and worried. I’ve tried to share my feelings about my current state of being, but sometimes when you feel like this the catch-22 is that you feel unheard even if you are. That’s just how it is.… Continue reading Giving grace
Sometimes I think in blog posts the way I thought in status updates when I first joined social media in 2007. In my quiet times, usually when I’m walking around the grocery store or in the shower, I prewrite my next post in my mind. I have a conversation with myself about the quality, ask… Continue reading My grass isn’t greener
Long ago when Daughter was, I believe, around two years old I “had to” take a trip with her all alone. I say had to because I was sort of terrified to do the trip without Husband. Still, I wanted to see my family out east and he couldn’t get time off, so I decided… Continue reading With Daughter and alone
I used to listen to music constantly in my life. Not only did it have the importance to me that it does to most American adolescents, but it was a way for me to connect with my family. My father died when I was very young and I often felt like I didn’t know him.… Continue reading Music and its place in my heart
We needed to get our eyes checked, Daughter and I, so we went. I’ve been wearing glasses since about fifth grade so this was an annual event for me with no real cause for excitement. Daughter, however, had had only one eye exam under her belt and she felt like this one was going to… Continue reading One… Or two?
When you are faced with a frustrating, scary, overwhelming, or out of control situation, where does your mind go? I’m one of those people who handles urgent emergencies with calm and focus in the immediate and then, when it’s all over, I get shaky and scared. I’m a lot different when the situation is drawn… Continue reading Where does your mind go?
Last night I was sitting in my living room with the animals, silently crying about a lot of things. I’m not good with uncertainty and there is so much around me now that my anxiety and brain in general are getting the better of me. Daughter wasn’t feeling well and woke me up at 3:00… Continue reading Out of nowhere
As you loyal readers know I am waiting to hear news from a job interview I had almost a month ago. I was told they would start to call people back at some point in June, and now June is here and I am more anxious than I thought possible. If you’ve read from the… Continue reading The mind as magnifying glass
Today I will be taking a computerized test to be given real authority to have a teaching license in my new state. I have opted to take the three sections of the rest all at once so it will be five hours with breaks between. I am terrified. I’ve been reviewing information and study guides… Continue reading Testing
Elephants in the Room 