When you are faced with a frustrating, scary, overwhelming, or out of control situation, where does your mind go? I’m one of those people who handles urgent emergencies with calm and focus in the immediate and then, when it’s all over, I get shaky and scared. I’m a lot different when the situation is drawn out.
It turns out that when I’m attempting to handle one of these long term curveballs, especially when the situation is out of my control, my mind chooses to perseverate on a detail, generally minor. That has been happening to me a lot lately, and it is frustrating beyond belief. I hate not being in control of what is going on around me. The fact that my brain decides to go into hyper focus about infinitesimal details and create a world of racing thoughts does not help me in the slightest. So what do I do about it?
Well, to be honest, I haven’t had a successful strategy yet. The gardening helps, and I’ve started playing a little game called Pokemon Go with Daughter, which has been amusing and a great distraction, though I think the fact that it is as hot as the surface of the sun has definitely hampered that experience. There’s reading and writing and plotting the demise of the pesky detail. For now I will just overanalyse and fret and try to figure a way out without sabotaging anything along the way. I’ll try to get my creative juices flowing again and get back to blogging good stuff soon.