Cancer · Grief · Life

Witness 

I’ve been, as you all know, struggling with the whole process of “personing” since my diagnosis. I go through phases of thinking 1) that’s ok because cancer and mastectomies and infections are a big deal or 2) I need to get over it and just go back to normal. I feel like I’ve tried a… Continue reading Witness 

Dieting · Life · Philosophy

Kung fu

  There’s this series of kid’s cartoon movies (there might be a TV series, too) about a panda, a Kung Fu Panda, if you will. The main character is voiced by Jack Black, and there are several other big names attached to the trilogy. They’re pretty adorable and watchable as far as kids movies go,… Continue reading Kung fu

Life

Sick sickness

    Getting sick when you’re sick is sort of complicated. One of my mastectomies has been moved to next week and I’ve been on an antibiotic to keep infections under control before I go under the knife again. Then Daughter, beautiful, funny, horrible immune system Daughter, came down with a killer virus. Fearing the… Continue reading Sick sickness

Depression · Life

Yoga and yogis

I don’t know of a lot of obese people who feel super confident about themselves athletically. I’ve not always been obese, but I certainly haven’t ever felt good about myself as an athlete of any sort, always having been just slightly less than comically uncoordinated.  For that and countless other reasons, when I got excited… Continue reading Yoga and yogis

Cancer · Life · Uncategorized

Angry

  http://www.playbuzz.com/katrinalightson10/whats-your-anger-type   I think, in general, I have handled my diagnosis and the major changes that are coming up in my life well. I have had appropriate moments of being overwhelmed and upset, but they are only moments. I recover relatively fast and move on. The past couple days, though, have been just too… Continue reading Angry

Cancer · Life · Weight · Weight Loss

My big deal

I have been keeping some developments sort of to myself. I’ve shared them with some close friends and family as well as with my series of doctors, but I’ve had a lot of wrestling to do with the ideas before I finally got to the point of being able to share. I’m still pretty uneasy,… Continue reading My big deal

Family · Life · Motherhood · Parenting

Dichotomy 

Daughter needed new things. Well, right now it feels like Daughter ALWAYS needs new things. We were all there at some point in our lives, and if you’re a parent you’ve seen it more recently, but everyone has this time when they just continuously grow for a while. I’ve been complaining about how fast this… Continue reading Dichotomy 

Life

Not Mickey, Chip, or Dale

Something funny about being sick is that the world doesn’t stop turning. Life happens around you no matter what is personally happening in your own private world. I was sort of amazed when I found out I had cancer and a couple of days later Christmas still came. And these things are continuing! Despite everything… Continue reading Not Mickey, Chip, or Dale

Cancer · Happiness · Life · Philosophy

Do you see signs?

  A while ago I wrote a post about how Husband genuinely thinks that the songs he hears on the radio can be a sign from God or the Universe that things are going to be ok. I talked a little about how I envy that in him; being able to find that comfort in… Continue reading Do you see signs?

Cancer · Depression · Life

More than that 

So. I’m in a stupid chain restaurant having an after school delicious treat with my girl so that we can have a few minutes of normal. She’s in the bathroom and I get a call. I’m out, so I ignore it, but I decide to check the lengthy message. It’s the lab which is running… Continue reading More than that