Cancer · Family · Grief · Life · Motherhood · Parenting

Still the mama

So, today’s cancer news was less than fun. There’s more, so I’m having a minor follow up procedure to get the last get-able bits. Then there’s the oncologist recommendation to hear. There’s some other stuff, too, that I’m not ready to talk about. Things that are ridiculously embarrassing and frustrating and overwhelming to me at… Continue reading Still the mama

Anxiety · Friendship · Grief · Life · Marriage · Motherhood · Tattoos

This is my story

  Something that I will never understand is why people judge others based on appearance. I have a few things about me that can make others jump to conclusions, and it frustrates me to no end. For example, I am fat, but I am also not unhealthy. That doesn’t make sense to some people, including […]

Cancer · Grief · Life

Frick. 

  Above you see a heavily blurred and effects studio messed-around-with image of my breast. The unaltered area of the photo shows one of the two areas where my doctor, as the nurses said, “dug around inside of” me. It hurts. A chunk of me is gone. My skin is angry and so is my… Continue reading Frick. 

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Food, glorious food

When I found out I needed surgery, I went into that mode many women I know enter wherein I knew I needed to get my home life together. I needed to clean, organize, and prepare. I needed post surgery undergarments, a clean and rearranged space in which to recover, and the fridge needed to be… Continue reading Food, glorious food

Cancer · Depression · Family · Life

Cancer is stupid

When I made the promise to myself to chronicle my cancer experience, I knew it wouldn’t always be easy. This was the day of my surgery- possibly my first surgery, possibly my only surgery. Daughter was scared and began texting me soon after she found out I was awake, so I grabbed my phone, took… Continue reading Cancer is stupid

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OK, so it’s a cancer blog

As you’ll remember, I really didn’t want this to become a cancer blog. Long term, maybe it won’t be, but for right now cancer is a part of my life from which I cannot disassociate, and I hate that. I mean, I know it makes sense that it’s all I’m thinking about right now, but… Continue reading OK, so it’s a cancer blog

Anxiety · Cancer · Life

Shock

One of the most interesting things I have learned in this recently started cancer journey is that shock is not at all what I thought it was. I thought that the experience of “being in shock” was a lot more like the electrical shock you get from walking across a carpet in wooly socks and… Continue reading Shock

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Not a cancer blog 

As I was trying to fall asleep last night I whispered to Husband, “I don’t know how to be Cancer Lady.” He told me, “Ok. You don’t have to be Cancer Lady. You have to be Elizabeth. You’re good at it. Besides, Cancer Lady sounds terrible; don’t be her,” and he promptly fell asleep. That… Continue reading Not a cancer blog 

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Assume good intent

I have worked for a lot of people in my life so far, and not all of them have been the best bosses. One that I had was a good person but struggled with the job as principal; it was just not the right fit at that time. Still, she had these nuggets of pure wisdom, and… Continue reading Assume good intent