Family · Grief · Life · Pets

The end of the universe 

It’s no secret that Daughter is completely amazing. I always try to tell people that I don’t think that just because I’m her mom. I’m a teacher, too, so I know a heck of a lot of kids. Daughter is a special person, way down deep in her soul. She sees things in people that… Continue reading The end of the universe 

Grief · Life · Pets

Weather mood

It’s pouring here. It’s gray and miserable and one of those ridiculous east coast summer rains that provide almost no relief from the heat and humidity. I’m a person who loves rain and storms, but today is not a day to enjoy it. Today the weather reflects the mood of my home.  This evening, we… Continue reading Weather mood

Anxiety · Cancer · Life · Philosophy

Amazing advice

I’m a member in a few private groups on Facebook, and they are wonderful for me. My cancer ones are great because I can write things that no one I know will ever see. I am lucky to be part of a self care sharing group in which I know some of the members but… Continue reading Amazing advice

Breast Cancer · Cancer · Family · Happiness · Life · Motherhood

Moving forward 

I took some big steps yesterday. Husband let me tag along on some errands after we voted, and I conquered a few fears. It was my first foray into public as a “flat” person, and I was pretty nervous. I was less self-conscious than I expected to be when we were in shops and generally… Continue reading Moving forward 

Breast Cancer · Cancer · Life

Unfinished business 

I’ve been noticing something particularly absurd about myself lately. It started with my DVR at the point of our move. I guess it’s been going on for a while, since we started preparing for our move nearly two years ago. Anyway, I was very into a show called Downton Abby. I would watch it alone… Continue reading Unfinished business 

Anxiety · Breast Cancer · Cancer · Depression · Grief · Life

Head vs. heart

When my doctor asked me when I thought I could do my next mastectomy surgery I told him that I was good to go as soon as he was. I was beyond anxious to be done, as I know I’ve said before. But now, as my date moves closer, I’m becoming worried in a way… Continue reading Head vs. heart

Breast Cancer · Cancer · Life · Uncategorized

It’s the little things

I get my nails done on the regular. Incidentally, on the regular is the youngest phrase I use. But I do. It’s probably the girliest thing I do in my whole life other than having most of the traditional girl parts. I don’t get my hair done often anymore, opting instead for a “let it… Continue reading It’s the little things

Anxiety · Family · Life

I got my wish

Yesterday, Husband, (to a lesser extent) Daughter, and I did some serious work in making her bedroom more grown up, more tween-ish, as well as simply more comfortable. She had a high loft bed with a desk and book shelves underneath which served her well for two years, but she was not hitting her head… Continue reading I got my wish

Family · Friendship · Life

Friemily

As you know from my cover letter that I wish I could write, it’s application season. My actual cover letter needed help, so I turned to one of my best friends ever for it. He and I got on the phone- yes, a real phone call, I do that with him- and began the work… Continue reading Friemily

Breast Cancer · Cancer · Life · Tattoos

When you just know 

When I’m feeling overwhelmed or stuck by what I have no control over, I get very focused on a future project. Sometimes it is simply rearranging furniture. When  I’m extremely lucky it’s about a vacation, but right now it’s about my body and what I can actually control. There’s not much that we can control… Continue reading When you just know