Aging Parents · Depression · Family · Grief · Life

Liar Liar

I am a liar and I have been one for many, many years. Even worse, I have no shame and no regrets about how much of a liar I am. On April 1, 1980, my father died. He had been sick for a very long time and died from leukemia. I was four years and… Continue reading Liar Liar

Grief · Life · Teacher · Teaching · Uncategorized

Honk

I know it’s been a long time since I’ve written a post. Interestingly, I think the last time I wrote was probably in April and I believe what I shared was the eulogy for my mother. Lately, the day before her funeral has been running through my mind on repeat. I think I’ve finally figured… Continue reading Honk

Aging Parents · Cancer · Family · Grief

Can’t find the words

I have been trying for almost two months to find the words to express how I have been feeling about moving my mother into an assisted living facility. I’ve been failing. I have not had to make any of the hard decisions in this process. I have not been responsible for anything, really. There are… Continue reading Can’t find the words

Breast Cancer · Cancer · Friendship · Grief

Setting myself up

There’s a phrase that I learned early in my career that has proven helpful in many aspects of my life since. I remember someone talking about how the best thing you can do for a child is to “set them up for success,” and it has been my number one rule as a teacher. It’s… Continue reading Setting myself up

Breast Cancer · Cancer · Grief · Happiness · Life · Parenting · Teacher · Teaching · Therapy · Weight

Singletasking

Today, while eating lunch with my most delightful friends and coworkers, we were discussing the nighttime routines of our little ones. Mine, being not so little, is very independent in her evening preparations. One friend talked about how her son likes her to turn off the light for the last few minutes of his bath.… Continue reading Singletasking

Family · Grief · Life · Pets

The end of the universe 

It’s no secret that Daughter is completely amazing. I always try to tell people that I don’t think that just because I’m her mom. I’m a teacher, too, so I know a heck of a lot of kids. Daughter is a special person, way down deep in her soul. She sees things in people that… Continue reading The end of the universe 

Grief · Life · Pets

Weather mood

It’s pouring here. It’s gray and miserable and one of those ridiculous east coast summer rains that provide almost no relief from the heat and humidity. I’m a person who loves rain and storms, but today is not a day to enjoy it. Today the weather reflects the mood of my home.  This evening, we… Continue reading Weather mood

Anxiety · Breast Cancer · Cancer · Depression · Grief · Life

Head vs. heart

When my doctor asked me when I thought I could do my next mastectomy surgery I told him that I was good to go as soon as he was. I was beyond anxious to be done, as I know I’ve said before. But now, as my date moves closer, I’m becoming worried in a way… Continue reading Head vs. heart

Breast Cancer · Cancer · Depression · Family · Grief · Life

The middle of the war 

When you’re first diagnosed with breast cancer and you share the news with your family and friends, people tell you some pretty specific things. They tell you that you’ll beat this thing. You are a warrior. You’re strong. You’ve got this. Then, when there aren’t any more cancer cells in your body, they congratulate you… Continue reading The middle of the war 

Cancer · Depression · Grief · Life

My princess moments

Husband and I decided to make me get out of the house and took Daughter to see the new Beauty and the Beast movie. I say that we took her to see it because I do not want to admit that I was sort of desperate to see the movie myself. It did not go… Continue reading My princess moments