I’ve been working really hard on improving myself lately. You might think that I’ve got too much going on for that sort of thing, but to be honest I’ve had so much time on my hands that I’ve walked down the road of self-reflection quite a bit more often than I normally would have… Continue reading Help.

I’m feeling less than happy today. I had an appointment with my surgeon and, while I was hoping to receive the “go ahead” for my next surgery in two weeks I had a lot of fluid drained instead. I get to go back in two weeks yet again and see if we can schedule then.… Continue reading Balancing act

It’s that time in my life again- time to get my resume into the hands of principals and try to make myself look appealing on paper. I think I do ok. I mean, the two times I’ve submitted it I’ve gotten called based on what I wrote. Still, I will admit to some frustration when… Continue reading My moment 

I’ve been quite the complainer lately. In fact, I was chatting with a lovely friend of mine who suffers from chronic illness and I realized that I was complaining about my pain to someone who experiences it daily. Sure, she was great to talk to because she had such amazing empathy, and when I became aware… Continue reading Finding unexpected comfort

When my family lived in Colorado, I would often go long periods without being able to see my brothers, sisters, and mother. While I tried to make it happen every year, and though I did see my mother that often, there were sometimes periods of two years in which I didn’t see siblings. In one… Continue reading Presence makes the heart grow fonder

I didn’t get to post at my normal time because we had a bit of a scare. Last night I started having a new pain from my surgery, and it was pretty bad. It was right at the place where my remaining drain is, and it made me pretty worried. When Husband and I decided… Continue reading Here I am 

Yesterday, I was awful. I was cranky and sad and rude. Why? I made the mistake of trying to go shopping in stores I don’t even normally shop in trying to find tops and bralettes to flatter, disguise, or accentuate my new body. Granted, this body is temporary and there could be an argument for… Continue reading Laughter in grieving

When I was pregnant, I remember saying that the nine months made so much sense to me. Every few weeks I would experience a new wave of realization. The fact that I was making a person was becoming more and more real to me as the months progressed and every time I thought I really… Continue reading My preparation 

Today is my day.  In a less-than-rare moment of freaking out I voiced my biggest and most irrational worry again to Husband. I said to him, “Promise you’ll still love me. Promise you won’t leave.” He smiled and said to me, “Don’t you remember how hard I fought to get you? A little thing like… Continue reading My love